STORY: Where Did The Holidays Go?

It's the holidays! I know I'm a little too late for a holiday post but what the heck. 

Christmas is so different this year. Actually, I felt it change slowly the past years but the change was so tiny that I could easily brush it off. This year, the change is very apparent. Christmas just wasn't Christmas anymore... well, the Christmas I know, that is.

With no exaggerations, I literally forgot about Christmas. Days leading to the day when all diet rules are broken and rooms are filled with people who like to tell stories of your childhood over and over, I was so buried in work that I was more excited for the holiday break to be over than for the holiday break to come, because I just want to keep going on with the program. It's sad but it's true. 

THEORY: Half Hour

I felt like I froze for the next half hour
I could feel the cold rush in my veins
I felt like I was dying, actually, I felt dead

I know I've f*cked up a lot of times in my lifetime
But I can honestly say I never felt more fear for my life than in that half hour
It wasn't a life or death situation but it seemed like it

I wanted the saying to come true
I wanted the ground beneath me to open up and just swallow me in
I wanted to disappear, or at least be invisible, 
Actually, I'm okay with people just forgetting my name
No, I wish I could just change identities and have no one question it
I wish I can just change identity and live a new life

I don't want to die anytime soon and I have not experienced death
But in that half hour, I swear I felt I shook hands with death

I guess I was still lucky
I was able to run away from my catastrophe
But it's the constant fear of it coming back to me that keeps me jumpy

Oh Lord, I won't do it again, I swear
I will be extra cautious, I will be more meticulous
Please forgive me and let this one time slide

Lord, please let that half hour get sucked into oblivion
Let's not go back there ever. Please

STORY: Drive Me Crazy

I'm driving!

Well, sort of. I've just had my first few driving lessons and I just can't stop thinking about driving. I just want to drive and drive and drive until I perfect all the skills! Well, even just not having the engine die every time I release the clutch too soon. And yes, you read that right... clutch! I'm driving stick, baby! This is what real driving is all about! None of those automatic cars that do half the driving (Yabang ko talaga.)

I'm so excited about driving that I even stole our car! Haha. When Jose drove me home last Sunday, I grabbed my keys to the car (which I bring all the time to remind myself I can drive!) and just drove off with our car. Jose was so panicky in the passenger seat the entire time, and would shriek every time I took a turn or approached an intersection. And it didn't help me at all! But I didn't cause any damage, except maybe Jose's psyche! Haha. It was a good thing I got the car back in it's slot in one piece (Okay, I cheated. I had Jose park the car because I haven't mastered that yet). This driving thing has just got me going crazy!

Anyway, ever since I got a hold of the steering wheel and had control over where I and the passenger of the car was going, I felt a sense of freedom and independence. It's like a whole new world opened up for me, much like reading. Before you learn to read, you don't really know what you're missing. And when you do start to read, everything else in your life suddenly have a new meaning. It's like you've been handicapped all this time and you just didn't know. It's the same with driving. It just changes your perspective on things. It opens your eyes to something that has been there all the time.

Waaaaaah. Here's to more driving off to new adventures! 

STORY: Dress to Impress

It's ID picture taking at the office for the new hires today.

Before I go on about how this officially marks a new chapter of my life (although I keep saying every first here in the office officially marks a new chapter, so the phrase has lost its essence by now), let me share how I frantically went through my closet this morning to find the perfect outfit for today's photo taking.

I know, I know. It's just an ID photo (take note, in this office, our IDs have full body shots of us) but it's going to be around for who knows how many years. If I'm at this office 10 years from now (not sure if staying that long is a good or bad thing), I don't want my photo to be dated!

Anyway, I wanted the outfit to be very me but very timeless. I like button down polos and I like dresses so when I just couldn't choose after 30 minutes, I decided I'm wearing both. I wore my denim polo over my white striped bodycon and threw on some sneakers to tone down the look and make it young and well, me. I would've gone for boots but I'm afraid boots may go out of fashion too soon.

I'm really excited to see how my ID photo comes out. I'll post it here once I get a hold of it! Now, just to figure out how I'm going to pose...

STORY: Event Dump

I think this is the longest blog hiatus I have gone through since I became active with Blogspot again. It's just sad since I honestly thought I could keep my regular updates going. So much about that.

Anyway, let me just run through random memories/events of the weeks that have passed.

Multiply is shutting down. I am not pleased. Although I have long deserted the site, the knowledge that the site continues to exist was comforting. I could always go back to photos of yesteryears (which is ironic since I try to bury my cotton bud hairstyle and terrible fashion sense as much as possible) whenever I want to. Now, I have to say goodbye to that security blanket. I'm trying to download all the files, so thank Multiply for offering that feature as consolation.

The Amalayer video went viral. Just wanted to share that I was part of the millions who couldn't get over that outraged LRT girl full of sass and a little too much Jersey Shore viewing time.

Ooooh, I also enjoyed the viral video for Metro Train - "Dimb Ways to Die" I literally kept that song on loop for an entire day.

I've been fully transitioned into the P&G team at the office. It's a long back story but to keep it short, I spent the first few months of my training at the office with various brands but a month before training ended, I was finally given a permanent home. Now, when I make my laundry list (which grows longer and and more complicated by the day), I am literally listing down stuff about laundry. Hello Tide!

Oh, I also signed a contract as a regular! Woot. Finally have an SS number. I got my student's permit renewed at LTO as well which leads me to the next happening of the past month...

I bought a car! Well, my mom did but I paid a considerable portion of it. I also paid for all the repairs done to it and it's now working perfectly! I can't wait to learn how to drive and well, drive!

I had my green hair dyed red already. It looks better, I think?

I ran a 5k marathon! I joined the McDonalds McHappy Day run and it was a blast. I had the entire family drop me off at the Fort but they ended up staying at the event, too! I even got to try the trampoline/bungee jumping booth which was AWESOME! I think I went higher than the pole! I wish I could've made an airflip though. Huhu.

I'm going to leave for a shoot in a few minutes (which is my first here at the agency!) so this will have to do for now. I'm hoping my next blog post won't be next year! BYE!